Behind Grey Eyes.
Genre: Romance, friendship, humor, hurt/comfort, angst.
Pairing: Remus x Sirius
Warning: Contains elements of homosexuality – don’t like, don’t read.
Notes: Poem is called “How Do I Love Thee?” by Elizabeth Browning.
He could’ve done it by magic, use this chance to be heard…
Can’t Take My Eyes Off You
Okies. First off, thanks so much for reading this series, although I’ve only put up five chapters (there are about 15 left for you to find, will include the link somewhere in this post), and I’d appreciate it if you’d check out the other chapters on Fanfiction.net, and review there.
It’s been really fun writing this, although stressful at times, but I enjoyed the entire process of planning and shifting the storyline so as to surprise the readers a bit. I don’t really like formulaic romantic-comedy storylines, so I had to cook something different on my own. I hope it worked out.
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Can’t Take My Eyes Off You – Chapter 5
Chapter 5: A Birthday
Fiction Rated: T – English – Romance/Humor – Kakashi H. & Sakura H.
Published: 08-22-07 – Updated: 01-27-08 – Complete
Disclaimer: Characters within this story belongs to Masashi Kishimoto, their creator and rightful owner. No copyright infringement intended.
“Hey Kakashi-kun,” she greeted him with a sweet lilt in her voice. He turned to give her a brief glance before resuming his current occupation. Her footsteps were light and graceful, he noted as he absent-mindedly flipped the page, and her voice had a dulcet ring in it that was easy on the ear – his ears, to be exact. Her footsteps grew louder and he could feel her approaching.
“It’s so dark out here, and you’re reading?” She glanced back and forth incredulously between his book and his masked face.
She had come looking for him after realizing that he had gone missing from the party that was being held not so far from the lake. After much teasing and ribbing received for her earlier and accidental ‘misconduct’, she was able to enjoy herself enough while entertaining her friends who brought her birthday party to life. The jounin friends of the companion that she was seeking now were merciless to both of them as they spat out innuendo after innuendo, causing her to go beet red that she felt sure it would combust in flames anytime soon.
“Aa…”
It was not the right time to read, since it was too dark, but he had had just about enough repartee with his friends about Sakura. It had come to the point where he decided that he had to get away before his already perverted mind became even contaminated with Genma’s corrupted and imaginative narrative of Sakura’s assets. Besides, he knew that she would have come looking for him sooner or later – though he would much prefer it to be later, when the crowd would have dwindled in number by then – and that notion led him to his current spot.
He let his visible eye, now that his tired Sharingan was covered with the hitai-ate, follow the curves of his companion’s body subtly. She had filled out rather pleasantly, he observed, and displayed some sense of maturity and practicality in her dressing. Her short red skirt that overlapped a pair of short black pants had slits up her hips provided her flexibility of movement. He could not help but let an appreciative smile sneak unto his lips as he felt her leaning against his side – she exuded warmth that he welcomed very much after enduring a few chilly breezes.
She leaned closer and he understood. He pulled her closer to him, putting his free arm around her shoulders. She smiled gratefully at him, letting her gaze settle comfortably on his twinkling eye.
The first time he had pulled her into a half-embrace was when they were caught in a horrible gale during their return from a simple mission. She was reluctant at first, but then submitted when she realized that she had not enough strength to pull away from his embrace. The experience, needless to say, was uncomfortable initially, but their inhibitions soon melted away when he caressed her upper arm lightly, as though to reassure her that he could be trusted. That was the second line they had crossed, since relinquishing their formalities as student and teacher. They were friends now.
“Sakura-chan?” His little book was now on the ground.
“Hmm?” She broke away from her inner musings to refocus on him.
“Where are our two wonderful friends?” A devilish smirk appeared on his face, his eye gleaming roguishly as he pulled her closer until she could rest her head in the crook of his neck. She would have objected, considering the fact that they were not alone and such a move on their part would invoke the glee of gossipmongers and perhaps the wrath of her well-meaning friends and teacher. But she did not, and that put his apprehension at ease, though the need to know the reason behind this unusual acquiescence on her behalf nagged at his conscience. He brushed away the thought, preferring to relish the moment while he had the opportunity.
As for the two troublemakers, Sakura had insisted earlier that he should not bother to deal with them or even knock some sense into their stubborn, conniving minds. He, as she put it, deserved to relax and enjoy his time at her surprise party while she took care of the matter. He had probably made his doubts obvious that she beamed at him with uncommon cheerfulness that made him suspect certain underhanded and perhaps, entertaining business that would be dealt onto them. He would not put it past her to make use of her new found subtlety that she had gained from him on the duo that were now, he mused, enjoying their last scraps of dinner and sake before the culminating moment. At least she was kind enough to wait.
“Oh, hanging around,” she replied nonchalantly as she snuggled closer, inhaling his pleasing masculine scent that she enjoyed very much. His smell was very distinct and very, very easy on her nose. She could not quite put a finger on it, but felt almost sure that he used a similar soap that she did. Perhaps he preferred grapes to strawberry but the hint of jasmine blended nicely together with the scent of the familiar cherry blossom. Though the fragrance was feminine, his cologne certainly added a nice masculine touch.
He lifted an eyebrow, showing his disbelief. Sakura had learnt the art of understatement after being in his company for a while. It amused him to hear her sometimes, and he often chuckled at her understated comments for she pulled it off rather charmingly and with the right amount of nonchalance. “Whereabouts?”
She gestured lazily towards the trees not far from where they were. He turned his gaze and focused his eye on two very familiar figures wrapped in their own cocoons, hanging from a very high branch of a tall, sturdy tree. The said figures swung around as much as they could, hoping to crash into the trunk of the tree and perhaps fall off like an acorn. He chuckled, softly. If they were much nearer, he would no doubt hear their strings of curses flowing with ease off their tongue. From his distance, he could see only glimpses of blond and gray bangs sticking out of their cocoons, only certifying the assumption that they could not make louder noises than muffled yells.
“Was it your idea?” He cast his eyes towards her.
“I had Sasuke and Tsunade pitching in,” she replied softly. His voice had a nice, deep rumbling to it, she thought, and it was mellow enough to be a soothing lullaby for her. She snuck her hands into his jounin vest, trying to catch some of his warmth. She rested her right hand on his chest as the other hand clutched his vest from the inside. His eyes widened in surprise in her apparent lack of reservations. It was only for a while though, and he lifted her quickly to move her between his legs. It would be more comfortable for the both of them now.
“Oh?”
“Mm.”
She closed her eyes, too lost in the coziness and security that he had wrapped her in. She cast all her worries and cares to the wind, opting instead to savor the moment as it was. She longed to be wrapped up like this for as long as she could, even forever if time would allow her. Unbeknownst to her, her protector was currently swimming in a torrent flooding of emotions. He was unsure of his stand, now that the second line they crossed had evolved into something much more intimate such as this. He too, though he did not know it himself, was feeling the realization of his longing to embrace her with such intimacy and familiarity and security that he knew she needed. She stirred slightly, distracting him from his inner musings.
“Kakashi-kun?” Her gentle voice crooned his name with affection.
“Yes?”
“Sing for me?”
Can’t Take My Eyes Off You – Chapter 4
Chapter 4: A Kidnapping
Fiction Rated: T – English – Romance/Humor – Kakashi H. & Sakura H.
Published: 08-22-07 – Updated: 01-27-08 – CompleteDisclaimer: Characters within this story belongs to Masashi Kishimoto, their creator and rightful owner. No copyright infringement intended.
The door creaked loudly as it swung open violently. The doorknob hung out of its socket. She stepped in, numbing fear clenching her heart. It was dark and cold inside, as a foreign hollow aura hung about the room. A single flicker from the flame of a candle lit a far off room. The rest of the apartment was left in darkness, though it took a few moments before her eyes adjusted themselves to the dimness. As her eyes made use of the dim light, the occasional lightning lit up the room – revealing clothes strewn messily on the floor, books scattered on the table and bed, used plates and glasses shattered and the furniture askew haphazardly – showing varying degrees of struggle that seemed to have taken place not so long ago. The wailing wind and raindrops pelting heavily on the glass windows seemed to cry out her intense trepidation. Her eyes scanned erratically around the room, looking for a familiar figure that had graced her with its calming presence on so many times.
Her eyes finally rested on a slumped figure by the bed, its limbs at awkward angles. The headband was in its hand, clutched weakly – as though trying to tell her it had fought to the point of no return. Hot angry tears trickled down her pale cheeks as she rushed forward to the figure. She held his head fondly, in an arm as her lips trembled and struggled to form coherent talk. He moaned softly, finally realizing that she was there. Finally there – where he needed her.
“Sakura…” Her name was like an energizer that spurred his body to regain its strength as it rolled off his tongue with ease. His faint heartbeat now grew stronger in her embrace. He had rarely the opportunity to be in such close proximity to her before and now felt that it would soon become his new and perhaps, permanent addiction. Besides his Icha Icha books, he would not mind such anew addiction.
“No, don’t speak… please, Kakashi, just don’t…” Her shoulders heaved violently as she tried to restrain her sobs. She did not want to agitate him, though it became apparent that he was just as agitated at the sight of her. She bit her lip, anxiously trying to recollect her thoughts though it was very difficult to do when confronted with a situation like this. Especially when it came to Kakashi. Everything she did or know would come undone when her thoughts came to him. It was getting unreasonable.
“Trap…” He had to warn her, before it would become too late. She had to go. He would die just to save her. He could not afford to waste more time than he already had with her, seeing now that her life was in grave danger as long as she was distracted by his condition.
“What?” She spun around immediately, but it was too late. She felt something sharp and very thin, perhaps a senbon pierce her neck. The drug was efficient in its reaction time, coursing through her veins speedily. Her lids became heavy, her limbs weakened and she slumped forward with her head on his chest. Her hearing was the last to go, though her drug-addled mind could not comprehend the exchange between Kakashi and the strangers.
“What the hell do you think you’re doing?” His hard tone belying the anger he fought back within him. His Sharingan was deactivated as a result of being shot with some very powerful bloodline limiter drug.
“Ne, Kakashi-sempai. Do not deny that you enjoy having your lovely,” the speaker paused to lick his lips as his lecherous eyes strayed towards her legs, “friend all over you like this.”
He would have blushed and hoped fervently that Sakura in her unconsciousness did not hear his heart beating wildly if the situation was not as life threatening. He admonished himself almost immediately. It certainly was ill-timing to think of such thoughts. He would rather save it for another day to revel in his private and perverted thoughts of her.
“What do you want?” He growled.
There was no reply this time. He watched Sakura being blindfolded and slung over the shoulder of the speaker. Another figure emerged from the shadows and proceeded to blindfold him as well. He felt himself being lifted up and hauled over the shoulder as well, noting the fact that his kidnappers were very strong physically, besides having such sly and conniving intelligence that rivaled Kakashi’s own.
“Where are we going?”
His question was merely met with cackles of laughter. He slowly slipped into unconsciousness again, feeling the raindrops on his skin as the chilly wind sent him shivers. The drug had been slow in reacting with his bodily fluids in the beginning, but had now begun to surge within him. It was taking effect rather well. He shivered involuntarily.
“Cold much?” It was the last thing he heard before passing out into a black world.
Her eyes fluttered open, brushing against a rough texture that stung her. She shut her eyes again, realizing that she was blindfolded. Her hands were tied to the back. She wrenched her binds roughly, hoping against hope it would come undone but it was too tight. Her hands began feeling around, trying to feel their way through the darkness that gripped her at the moment. They groped around until one of her hands rested on a very warm and soft spot. Warmth meant there was somebody with her. She squeezed harder, eliciting a sharp intake of breath and a low moan from her ‘companion’.
“Who is it?” She whispered hoarsely, her hand still holding the ‘spot’.
“Sakura,” she heard her name called in a familiar voice, though it sounded as though Kakashi was speaking through gritted teeth, “get your hands off my privates.”
Her hands withdrew in a split second, as blood rushed up to her neck and cheeks furiously. “Sorry.”
“It’s okay. My pleasure,” he added with a tinge of cheekiness. He had long ago awakened from his drug-induced slumber and had come to the conclusion that they were alone. He could not feel any chakra nearby, nor had he heard any sounds that would betray the enemies to them. At least it was safe enough to lighten the tension between the two of them.
She decided to ignore him on that remark, as the situation did not seem to favor them. “What’s going on, Kakashi?”
“I have no idea,” he answered gruffly, still trying to fight off the blush that threatened to color his pale cheeks. He was still a little bewildered at Sakura’s earlier actions and was going through the denial phase that he actually enjoyed the sensations she sent into him. He struggled with his ropes before realizing that it was only in vain. “Somebody had better take these binds off me before I cut them with chakra.”
Something clicked. They looked up, though unsure of where the sound had come from. Someone giggled, then another, and another before it seemed as though the whole place erupted in wholesome laughter. Kakashi and Sakura frowned, suspecting the worst to come. The laughter died down eventually before the atmosphere stilled once again. There was a rustle of leaves and some snapping of twigs before they both felt a presence in front of them. They struggled harder against their bindings, itching to get into battle mode and strangle whomever it was that stood near them now.
They felt the ropes loosened and they yanked down their blindfolds. Their eyes widened in bewilderment at the sight before their eyes. It was as though everyone that they knew was there, even the Sand siblings were joining in the ‘fun’. Their friends were thoroughly amused, especially at the groping
episode and could not contain their glee at the expense of the two almost fearsome and untouchable ninjas. They were well known for what damage their tempers could dispense out at times, especially at times like this.
“Ne, Kakashi… Sakura’s got a fine touch, doesn’t she?” Their heads turned swiftly, almost mechanically to the brown-haired jounin, the blush on their faces now evident. Their eyes fastened on him, narrowing into tiny slits as they did so.
“Genma…” Kakashi drawled menacingly as he stood up. He offered a hand to Sakura and pulled her up as she took it. She gave his hand a brief squeeze as a sign of gratitude, and perhaps encouragement to proceed with his very transparent plan of teaching Genma a lesson or two on subtlety. He squeezed back before releasing, albeit reluctantly.
“What?” The senbon-wielder grinned in amusement before pointing an accusing finger to a certain blonde that now cowered behind Sasuke. “It was his idea.” His eyebrows shot up in emphasis.
A pair of beryl eyes and a pair of mismatched eyes attempted to burn fiery holes into Sasuke, oblivious to everyone else’s maniacal grins plastered on their faces. If looks could kill, Naruto would have been cremated after dropping dead from the glowering scowls they dished out to him. Sasuke would be dead as well, from unwittingly shielding the mischievous blonde.
Sensing that it was the perfect opportunity to escape before all hell was unleashed, a certain gray-haired toad Sannin tried to slink off into the crowd, only to be obstructed by a strong grip on his arm. The fingers were very, very familiar though he knew that it had never, ever touched him before. He turned.
“Jiraiya-sama! I know you’re his partner too!” Sakura jerked a finger at said blonde’s direction, now helplessly clutched in a death-grip of Kakashi’s.
The Sannin and his apprentice exchanged knowing looks and gulped. They heaved a sigh of relief, however, as the chokeholds slackened when Genma cleared his throat. The two would-be murderers cast their death-glares in his direction, momentarily stopping his thinking. After regaining his composure, he snapped his fingers in signal.
“Happy birthday, Sakura,” The crowd chorused.
Can’t Take My Eyes Off You – Chapter 3
Chapter 3: A Broken Ankle
Fiction Rated: T – English – Romance/Humor – Kakashi H. & Sakura H.
Published: 08-22-07 – Updated: 01-27-08 – Complete
Disclaimer: Characters within this story belongs to Masashi Kishimoto, their creator and rightful owner. No copyright infringement intended.
At the thought of Copy Nin, the senbon chewing ninja now turned to the rather nonchalant figure still seated at their table. He had not even bothered to look up from his wretched orange book since Genma plucked his brazen courage to trip the pleasantly-endowed pink-haired kunoichi. He had only wanted a glimpse of her panties, just to fulfill his fantasy of the day. Unfortunately, he had only to lift the hem of the skirt that she wore about a fraction of an inch higher when the next thing he saw was his own blood smeared all over his face.
On top of that, he found out that his ankle was mysteriously broken. He looked round furiously, daring the onlookers to sneer or jeer at him as he attempted to pin the culprit down. No one looked guilty enough for him to blame. He did not care for the formerly-fuming-now-smirking kunoichi who stared down at him with certain smugness in her aura. She had merely doled out a chakra-enhanced punch for his nose, knocking the wind out of him immediately.
The said kunoichi could not be bothered with an apology nor would she care to linger around longer to hear him stutter out an apology. She went off without a single backward glance and took her seat next to a guffawing Naruto. The whole group had first gasped in shock, and then erupted in laughter when they realized what had occurred.
Picking himself up with much effort, Genma hobbled to his table where the gray-haired ninja sat. He seated himself albeit difficultly, grimacing as he did so. His so-called friend took only a momentary glance at his injuries with that infuriatingly languid gaze before turning back to his novel.
“Ne… Genma, you outdid yourself this time,” he commented monotonously – though there was a derisive amusement laced in his tone.
“I just wanted a peek!” He growled back, massaging the now bulging ankle. “Some bastard took the opportunity to break my ankle!”
“Oh?” A lifted eyebrow, but not a single glance was spared.
Nevertheless, he continued. “Sakura merely punched me, aimed for my face.” He grunted as he hit a painful spot. “But that bloody bastard clearly thought it wasn’t enough.” He broke his gaze at the back of the said kunoichi and turned to his friend. “You know anything about this?”
“Should I?” Came the blasé response.
“Bastard.” He growled. “She’s your favorite student, no?” His eyes narrowed in suspicion.
“So?” A smile formed beneath the mask, and he turned to meet the narrowed eyes with a lone gleaming eye.
“You don’t happen to have had anything to do with my broken ankle, did you now… Kakashi-sensei?” Genma had now adopted a very deceptive sweet but intermingled with murderous intent tone.
“Why would I?” An eyebrow lifted. He suppressed an overwhelming urge to chortle at his friend. He had been the one who invited the trouble after all.
“She’s your student,” he snarled.
“Was being the operative word here, ne Genma?”
“Was? What are you trying to say? You don’t care?” His pitch reached a note higher.
“Should I?” He chuckled. “As you have so clearly er… experienced, she is rather capable of defending her honor, don’t you agree?” Of course, a little extra help from Kakashi from time to time whenever he was around to do so would definitely be appreciated – if she had known.
He snorted, incensed with the man’s sense of humor now. “She’s capable, all right. But I think it’s overreaction,” he added through clenched teeth.
“Overreaction?”
“Yeah, I mean, it’s not like we don’t flirt now and then.” He shrugged in an unperturbed manner, unknowingly tottering into dangerous waters with his companion now. “I don’t see any harm in being publicly affectionate with her. Especially when those gorgeous buns of hers are screaming for me to touch,” he added as he licked his lips, unaware that his voice was just loud enough to reach the table where the subject of their discussion was seated.
With another fuzzy flash, the already injured jounin was sprawled on the floor face down this time. He felt throbbing and agonizing pain in his nose, both his ankles and his stomach. What the hell?
Apparently, he had been generously dealt with another chakra-laden kick to the stomach and somehow, again, his left ankle was now broken. He heard a very audible sigh as he felt himself being picked up with a tightening grip on the neck. Sakura had a homicidal gleam in her eyes and even in her voice when she spoke this time.
“Let’s go to the hospital, Genma. I’ll personally fix you up there.”
She had only taken a step forward when his friend came to the rescue. Genma heaved a relieved sigh. “Kakashi! Thanks…” He faltered when he realized that his friend had no intention of relieving him of the impending torture.
“Hello, Sakura.” The corners of his eyes creased as he held up his hand in greeting.
“Hello, Kakashi,” she greeted softly. Her heart softened at the sight of her ex-sensei.
“I’ll help you with that load, if you don’t mind,” he offered kindly. Both were now oblivious to the ‘load’ that was glaring at the two furiously, though unable to do anything with his given condition.
“Thank you.”
Can’t Take My Eyes Off You – Chapter 2
Chapter 2: A Game Of Tag
Fiction Rated: T – English – Romance/Humor – Kakashi H. & Sakura H.
Published: 08-22-07 – Updated: 01-27-08 – CompleteDisclaimer: Characters within this story belongs to Masashi Kishimoto, their creator and rightful owner. No copyright infringement intended.
“Yes, Sakura-chan?” She could almost hear the laughter in his voice. How dare he?
She whirled round, her balled-up fist swinging in his direction. But it merely punched the air as he avoided her attack swiftly.
“Come. Back. Here. NOW!” She yelled at him despite her lack of food.
But he was nowhere to be seen. She could not sense his chakra at all within her vicinity. He would not have left her that way, she knew that. At worst, he was probably blocking her from sensing his chakra, and was now sitting up on a tree branch. She took a deep breath. Perhaps it was good training for her anger management – though her rumbling stomach disagreed strongly. She needed food. And fast. If he knew what was best for himself, he would be leaving her bento box somewhere nearby and speed to the nearest village and not come back for a week.
She decided to just make a deal with him. After all, the overgrown child probably wanted to have his revenge after she had been too busy to tend to him last week. She sighed. He certainly was being childish now. Perhaps she should not have forfeited his afternoon trainings for patching up a certain womanizing ninja. His pride was probably dented.
She sat on the soft grass, her voice had gone soft now.
“Kakashi-kun, let’s play tag, shall we? If I tag you, you’ll give me back my bento box. Ok?”
Not a reply. She heaved a soft sigh. “I’ll share with you too…? Please…?” She added pleadingly.
Still, there was no reply. She began to doubt that he was there. Nevertheless, she continued bargaining even though she was more confident now that he was not there.
“I’ll feed you even… I just want to eat.” She was near tears now, though she fought hard to keep them at bay. She was not going to win this with her tears. No way.
“Hm? Feed me?” Her downcast eyes saw his familiar legs, but did not look up at him. She merely nodded.
“Are you crying, Sakura?” His voice lowered, almost whispering as he knelt down to her height. He swallowed his saliva quietly. Had he gone too far?
“No, I’m not. I’m fine… just hungry,” she finished meekly. Her large, innocent eyes finally looked up at him – almost pleading him to surrender her lunch. He seemed hesitant.
He was beginning to think it would be a good idea to surrender the bento box right then and just keep quiet. After all, he could not bear the thought or even the sight of her hot tears trickling down those smooth cheeks. He sighed. Perhaps he should have surrendered earlier? A sudden tap on his head startled him out of his thoughts.
“Hn?”
“You’re tagged!” She grinned happily. “Can I have my lunch now?”
“That was downright cheating Sakura-chan!” He chuckled, handing her the box. As she made a grab for it, he withdrew his hand. “You did remember the deal, didn’t you?”
“Deal? What deal, Kaka-kun?” Her eyes shone with amusement now.
“Feeding me?”
“There was no deal, as I recall, Kaka-kun…” She drawled.
“Don’t do that Saku-chan… as I recall as well, you too have no deal.” He grinned wickedly. Two can play the same game.
“Oh. That… deal…” She acquiesced reluctantly – he noticed. “Okay… are you sure you want me to feed you?”
“Of course. What could be more romantic?” He chortled, knowing how embarrassing such a comment would be for her. As he looked at her, he knew he was right. Her cheeks were of a pinkish hue now, her eyes gazing at his feet in an unusual interest – completely embarrassed to silence. He too could not believe such a comment would escape his lips, but he simply could not resist. The timing was screaming for it.
“Ne… Sakura-chan, you want your lunch back, right? I’m hungry too, you know…” He chuckled some more.
Her viridian eyes looked up at him with innocence, staring at him. He handed her the box and wasted no time in sitting across her. “Are you ready Sakura-chan?”
“Of course, Kakashi-kun. Here you go!” She had quickly opened the cover and scooped some of her rice and vegetable after he handed her the box.
His eyes widened in delight as he savored her home-cooked dish. “Delicious!”
“Really?”
“Yes, of course. You’re a wonderful cook, Sakura-chan!”
Another appreciative blush. “Thank you, Kakashi.”
“Here, let me feed you.”
Before she could protest, he had taken the box and spoon away from her swiftly and the chicken-meat-and-rice-filled spoon awaited her patiently. She opened her mouth and felt the food pushed gently into her mouth. He was very gentle, she noted subconsciously, and considerate too. It felt good just to sit there in front of him, feeding him and also being fed. In fact, it went beyond feeling good. It gave her an adrenaline rush, and filled her with such warmth that she was sorely tempted to reach out and kiss him. She blushed when she realized what she was thinking.
He peered lazily at her, secretly wondering why she was blushing. “Are you all right, Sakura?”
“Yes… I’m fine,” she replied softly.
It was the first time they had shared a lunch together and it was the first time for both to have fed each other. To both, it was a very much welcomed and warmly accepted first time experience. Both were considering provoking each other in a not-so-subtle manner to subtly have the other surrender to another feeding time. They kept the silence, both turning the scheming cog wheels relentlessly in their minds.
Can’t Take My Eyes Off You – Chapter 1
Chapter 1: A Blind Date
Fiction Rated: T – English – Romance/Humor – Kakashi H. & Sakura H.
Published: 08-22-07 – Updated: 01-27-08 – Complete
Disclaimer: Characters within this story belongs to Masashi Kishimoto, their creator and rightful owner. No copyright infringement intended.
It was Ino’s idea – to get herself a date and going to the party. She would rather go with Naruto or Sasuke, that is, if they were available in the first place. Unfortunately for her, they would rather date each other. It was that obvious. Funnily enough, years of being a missing-nin had certainly changed Sasuke’s view regarding his friendship with Naruto. Naruto was only too happy to accept Sasuke back into the fold to notice the former’s changed attitude towards him. It was amazing how dense Naruto could be when it came to reading body language and the signals one can exude. Her own childish infatuations for Sasuke had somewhat watered down to love meant for friends, perhaps to only love him as a brother.
She sighed. Her problem was still there. She had no date. Well, it was no one she knew. Her friend’s attempts at setting her up with Lee were infuriating, though it provided much amusement to her friends. At least Kakashi was on her side. He had helped her escape several of Lee’s more persuasive advances, though it meant that she was again and again stuck at footing the bill for her sensei. No, he wasn’t her sensei anymore, she told herself as she shook her head gently. She certainly hoped that Ino was not being her usual humorless pig-self by setting her up with Lee. If she did… Sakura grinned wickedly. She would pay dearly.
She glanced at the clock. It was late. Great, now Kakashi’s habit was growing on her. With a flurry of movement, she dressed up as fast as she could. Her make up was minimal, as she did not want to draw unwanted attention upon herself with thick make up. Without another glance towards the clock, she rushed off to the Inuzukas’. Her hair had been done up in a tight bun, but now loose strains strayed down her cheeks. At least it wouldn’t look like she had put too much effort into looking good. If Ino’s taste in men for her were any indication, she did not want to let him on with thinking she was looking especially nice for him.
She stopped at the front door. The music was loud but did not drown out the noise of the festivities going on inside. Her heart beat faster and she now half-wished that she had not agreed to come.
“Hello there, Sakura-chan.” A deep, masculine voice greeted her from behind.
She turned swiftly, her fingers nervously adjusting the hem of the skirt. It was him. He looked especially amused now, watching her staring at him in a stunned manner. He chuckled.
“Ne… Sakura-chan, are you really going to wear that?”
“Kakashi-sensei! You’re early!” She exclaimed softly, her voice clearly showing her ill-disguised shock.
“Aa? Early?” He scratched the back of his head. “I thought I was late… Didn’t you say to come at 7? It’s already 7.30 my dear Sakura-chan.” He let out a nervous chuckle.
He had found it very amusing, exhilarating and also touched to see her wearing the dress he had chosen for her. He never would have thought that she would buy it, let alone wear it when he had suggested it about two days ago. She had practically dragged him to the boutique to get herself a dress to Kiba’s birthday party. He found out it was Ino’s brilliant idea of getting her friend laid, he frowned at the reminder, and perhaps see her friend occupied with someone instead of her medic nin duties. He himself would love to see her happy with a special somebody, if it weren’t for his sudden streaks of possessiveness that usually crept up when he saw her with a date. Tonight was no different. Ino was setting her up with someone, and he did not protest although he had tried coaxing Sakura to get someone she knew as an escort – namely, him. She didn’t take the hint though.
He sighed softly.
“Kakashi-sensei, you think this looks horrible on me, don’t you?” A timid voice broke his chain of thoughts.
Well, she looked ethereal in her sakura-patterned dress. It ended just a few inches above her knees, exposing her flawless and endless legs. His lone eye moved up slowly, savoring the view before him. The dress clung close to her womanly curves, though it was not too tight for comfort. Her bare shoulders were tempting him to touch and he forced himself to stop there. Tempting? Sakura? He swallowed his saliva, hoping dearly he had not drooled.
“Ne… Sakura-chan… I thought I told you to call me Kakashi?” His eye crinkled.
“Kakashi, what do you think? Did I just ruin it?” She asked nervously.
“No…” He shook his head. “You look…” He scratched the back of his head. Should he say it? “Sexy.”
Her eyes widened in shock as her blush crept up to her cheeks. It was embarrassing enough for her to wear such a revealing dress, without Kakashi making it worse by calling her sexy. Was he making fun of her? She gazed at him intently. He seemed sincere, amidst the nervous chuckle. Somehow, she could not shake off the feeling of nervousness around him in that dress. There was also the unmistakable tingly feeling she got from seeing him in that marvelous suit. He looked… delicious. The door flew open, timely stopping her thoughts from marveling silently at her sensei.
“There you are Sakura! What made you so late??” Ino yelled above the noise as she opened the door.
“I well… I …” She was at lost for words, though that did not stop Ino from shoving a tall, tanned man towards her.
“Here, this is Kaneshi. He’s a family friend traveling from another village.” Ino beamed at him and turned to Sakura.
“Enjoy yourselves you two… Oh!” Apparently she had caught sight of Kakashi, who was faking another smile – though only Sakura knew it. Sakura smiled apologetically at him, but was unable to wish him luck with Ino when a large hand encircled itself around her delicate wrist.
Kaneshi wasted no time in pulling Sakura by the hand into the party scene. He smelled … Atrocious. She would even prefer one of Kakashi’s sake-and-sweat-and-blood-combo smells to THIS. She fought hard not to scrunch up her nose at him. That was one point down for Kaneshi. Another point down for his breath to stink heavily of sake. She turned back to see Kakashi pushing past Ino lazily with a dismissive wave at the furious blonde. He sat within her viewing range and took out his offending, little orange book.
She rolled her eyes. Great. There goes her guardian. She turned her eyes to
wards Kaneshi, who was now pushing through the crowd to get to the dance floor. Oh no. The evening was indeed getting worst.
“Let’s dance,” he slurred.
She smiled forcefully and painfully as his hand gripped her waist tightly. As the song wore on, their uncomfortable distance grew even more disconcerting – for both Sakura and the man in the corner who was watching her albeit his feigned reading. Kaneshi seemed to have a lot of nerve to pull her closer. He was a good head taller than her and was unabashedly staring down her cleavage as he kept on stepping on her toes. Her well pedicure toes. His points had reduced by a demeaning five points by now.
“Ahem.” The two dancers turned to the person. “Hello, Sakura, would you like to dance with me?” It was Kakashi. She looked relieved, delighted and positively ready to throw her arms around his neck when her date spoke up.
“She’s my date, old man. Get your own.” He growled and pushed Kakashi roughly in the chest. She bit her lip. It was one thing to call him an old man, and another to manhandle him when he had been very courteous. With just a blink of an eye, Kaneshi shot through the roof – clutching his bottom, screaming in pain and his eyes bulging. One Thousand Years Of Pain. That was his and her favorite technique when it came to warding off unwanted suitors.
Everyone’s eyes riveted swiftly to the smiling duo, some were rolling their eyes and some were giggling. Apparently, no one thought much of Kaneshi – thanks to his very courteous manners tonight.
“So, Sakura-chan, shall we now?” He turned to her, smiling warmly under his mask.
“Of course, Kakashi-sensei. My pleasure,” she added sincerely.
“Ah… Didn’t I tell you not to call me sensei? Kakashi is absolutely fine.”
“Kakashi-kun?”
“Perfect.”
I’m Sorry
One-Shot: I’m Sorry
Fiction Rated: T – English – Angst/Romance – Sakura H. & Kakashi H. Published: 11-16-07 – Complete
Disclaimer: Characters within this story belongs to Masashi Kishimoto, their creator and rightful owner. No copyright infringement intended.
“I don’t care. Get lost.” She pushed past him roughly, shaking off his hand that had gripped her wrist. She refused to accept his apology this time. It was no use – he would lead her into the vicious cycle over and over again.
He let his arm fall limply to his side, his throat dry as he struggled to hang onto his defensive wall of indifference. He knew that she knew it was breaking him too, that this was final. He wanted to tell her things, things he had never told her before, yet he knew the next few words he said would be the last he would say to her. Ever.
“I’m really, truly proud of you,” he choked out, holding back the tears already forming a blurry mist in his vision.
She didn’t turn back, she didn’t look back – she didn’t even pause in her steps. She just walked away.
Big droplets of tears flowed gently down her cheeks, her lips trembling as she bit her bottom lip hard. She forced her eyes shut, holding back the wail she wanted to scream out. She opened her eyes again, now turning a forlorn gaze heavenwards. The sky was crying with her today, the bleak rain clouds hovering ominously over her as the rain pelt softly against her skin.
She missed him.
It was already half a year gone – a time too long for even her anger to remain. It had dissipated after two weeks since she walked away, though he had been long gone on a solo mission by the time she squashed her ego and walked up to his apartment to apologize. She had stood out in his balcony, as she always did, and had tapped softly on the glass panel. She had waited under the heavy rain that soaked her thoroughly before leaving dejectedly. She had dragged her feet back to her own apartment, before being summoned to the Hokage’s office to resume her duties. Seeing Sakura’s wretchedness made Tsunade frown in apprehension, before informing her apprentice that her former sensei had left on a solo mission. She had said it so brusquely, as though in sympathy for the absent man instead of the woman that stood in disappointment in front of her – Sakura remembered so well that it still made her flinch as she recalled it. She had resumed her duties soon after, only taking the time off regularly to frequent the memorial stone that he had visited every day – perhaps hoping to see him there, should he return from his mission.
She laughed bitterly, stifled by her choked tears.
His scent was still fresh in her memories. It smelled of the forest, the rain, his dogs and everything else that was part of him. She had clung to that scent vehemently, always trying to duplicate it on herself so she would not need to sniff his pillow she had stolen on those aching nights. It was to no avail, and even the slightest smell on his pillow was now slowly overwhelmed with hers. She bit her lip, remembering the light traces of his fingers on her lips. His touches were always lingering, as though he was contemplating just how long the moments would last on all those times. The light caresses on her cheeks were always accompanied with a faraway, dreamy gaze, as though he was walking in a dream he did not want to be rid of. She ran her fingers through her tangled mess of hair, feeling the sensations of his fingers brushing through her hair as they snuggled up in bed with each other on cold nights. His brushes were always so delicate and soft, as though he thought her hair was as fragile as it looked.
She wrapped her arms around her torso, trying to make herself feel as though he was the one holding her now. The rain now diluted her tears, and she felt thankful that it was so. It felt as though she could release her pain freely, now that the rainwater washed away her tears. The rain gradually subsided, and she cursed the skies for its fickleness – though inwardly, she knew she was cursing herself for hurting him with her impatience.
It was time to stop mourning for the man – he was not dead yet, and she wanted it kept that way. She got up slowly, and ambled weakly towards the Hokage tower. She trudged reluctantly up the stairs leading up to her teacher’s office, grudging the fact that her ritual was cut short – though she was late for their meeting. She allowed a small smile at the reminder, knowing that Kakashi’s habit had taken a hold in her now. It was rare for her to smile nowadays – though all that mattered to her was that he could still make her smile, even if he was not around.
She pushed the door open after being permitted to enter and bowed as she greeted her teacher.
“Good afternoon, shishou.” A clipped polite greeting, devoid of any cheerful emotions.
Her teacher did not reply. Instead, she received an appraising stare mixed with a faint grimness. She waited patiently for some sort of explanation, now no longer excited to be assigned any task. She was a sorry, empty shell of her former self – always masking her loneliness with a fake smile that did not reach her eyes. Perhaps it had been a half hour, or an hour – she was not sure – that her shishou kept her silence.
The silence was broken when the older woman cleared her throat. Still fixing a cautious stare on her young apprentice, she began, “I have news.”
Whatever left of her joy was chained into a bundle and thrown away out of her soul; a sense of foreboding taking over her. “Yes?” Her voice had gone unsteady, slightly cracking as she anticipated the worst.
“We will engrave his name,” her shishou choked slightly, tears forming in her eyes, “on the memorial stone in two days’ time.” She bit her lip, her gaze now cast downwards. Big, fat droplets fell on the sheaf of documents in front of her.
Without a word, Sakura walked out of the office. Her expression was inscrutable, unreadable even to the best of the shinobi used to looking underneath the underneath. Her eyes were empty of their shine as they fixed a straight stare ahead. Her lips were set in a taut, straight line. Her shoulders were rigid, not slumped, though her arms hung listlessly by her sides. The color had drained from her cheeks, enhancing the dead look in her eyes as her feet took on a mind of its own and led her to somewhere familiar.
She squeezed her eyes shut, letting her knees buckle weakly as she knelt in front of the memorial stone.
A hand went up limply to her chest, and she clutched the cloth desperately, feeling the faint heartbeat beneath it. Thoughts ran wildly through her mind, thoughts that her mind had scrounged for just to redirect her raw emotions from being released as it should. Her heartbeats would maybe stay faint for as long as she lived outside of the battlefield. It would never thump wildly against her chest anymore just like it would when he was so close to her, now that his body would be six feet under. It would never skip a beat anymore now just like it would when his voice had dropped into a hoarse, needy whisper, now that his voice had lost itself in the winds. She would never feel her heart sinking anymore just like it would when she anxiously awaited his homecoming from missions, now that he was lost forever.
The big heart he had loved so much could not contain the morose thoughts anymore. It started as small sobs, which then made her entire body wrack with heavy, violent sobs. Sobs turned into soft crying, and eventually became a strangled wail. Her fist drove into the muddy soil beneath her, splashing mud onto her clothes.
The news had gripped her with such cold intensity – she was tempted to discard it as a dr
eam, a cruel joke played in her subconscious. Her mind knew better, and a cold voice crept up into her thoughts, telling her it was real. He was really gone, truly dead – he had died for the ones he loved, to protect them all, to protect her. She beat a fist against the unforgiving stone, knowing slightly that he too had done the suicidal assignment to alleviate the pain. What was she to do now – now that there were no words of forgiveness for her to offer in return for the undoing of his death? Thoughts of regret wistfully clouded her mind.
What she would give just to hear his voice again – to hear him chide her when she did not listen to his orders, to listen to the tenderness his voice had adopted when he called her name, and even to hear his silly excuses for being late to their dates. She would give anything to turn back time – to tell him that she forgave him, to heal the pain she had caused him, and just to look into his obsidian eye that would wink at her in return. The moments they had shared in the past seemed so distant from her that it felt so unreal, as though it had happened in a different lifetime. She had not taken them for granted, though it did slipped her mind on that day that she walked away from him.
It was a dangerous thing to wish for – the ability to turn back time – and she knew it. She knew that he had seen this coming, feeling bitter with herself as she recalled his very last words before she left. Heartfelt words had choked out of his lips – words that were almost unheard of, coming from him. She leaned her forehead on the stone, tracing lightly an empty space that would be carved with his name.
He was really gone – and there was nothing she could do to take away the pain. She loved him, and was loved in return by the man. There will be no other, none that would ever take his place – her last promise to him.
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A/N: A little note – this story was inspired by the song ‘Hurt’ by Christina Aguilera. I wanted to capture the pain their memories would have on Sakura, and just to explore the workings of her emotions as she tries to grasp the fact that Kakashi’s dead. The inspiration was also drawn from personal experience, so I hope that this story does the song justice. Anyways, my first attempt at romance-angst – please let me know if there’s anything not right with it.
Stories – Mine
I’ve decided to keep another blog alive… on Blogger. I’ve another blog over at LiveJournal. It’s called Little Wonderland. So anyway, I’ve been more active on other fanfiction archives than my own blog… hahaha…
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Anyways… my stories:
Naruto Series
I’m Sorry – [KakaSaku] He’s said those two words to her so many times before, but she’s had enough and walks away. She doesn’t regret it – not until she finds out that she’ll never hear it from him anymore.
Other Info: Complete – Teen – Angst, Romance
Link: FF.net
Can’t Take My Eyes Off You – [KakaSaku] They’re learning to cross lines… with the help of their overeager friends who team up to see to it that they do cross the final line to become … more than friends.
Other Info: In-progress – Teen – Romance, Humor, Fluff – Updated: 12-01-07
Link: FF.net
